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frustration #1

my heart has been beating so fucking fast these days, so fast it feels like it's going to explode anytime.
i wonder what's wrong with me.

no i'm not talkin bout feelings that made my heart beats like that.

insufficient sleep/water/rest? or do i need a doctor.

what am i?

frustration #2

college is changing me ):
i think i'm becoming more and more and more impatient and cold.
the "whatever, i don't want to know what you want/i don't care about you" is taking over me.

i feel as if like i'm a .. worst person on earth.
and i didn't mean it at all ):
still hoping that this is only temporary. mood swing, maybe?

frustration #3
this. i can't even explain why am i frustrated about this.



oh one thing that's helping me atm,
reading psychology book helps me feel better :D
hahaha seriously, no joke.

i had to stop myself

oh gosh. my lawddd. help me.
everything isn't going fineee.

okay. not as bad as "everything" but nothing good has been happenin' much lately. did i did anythin superstitiously wrong?
or is it because i told some people that i'm a free thinker and god decided to punish me for my disloyalty?

whoa. this is an issue i shouldn't be postin' on here. hahaha or else i might get my house burned.

so what's up everyone? i miss all of you. i know who reads my blog. people who cares about me (:
... corny.

college is.. gettin' hectic. research, assignments, lots of catching up to do. not like i've missed any classes.. i just feel like i need to catch up now before i fall far behind.

friends are nice.
eventhough sometimes i feel like i'm a little too.. i can't even explain.
it's not like i don't like to have fun or talk alot in school. i'm not the girly girl type of friend that kissy and huggy friends all the time. i don't do that, it's not my thing. ):

no wonder i have so many guy friends. hahaha
this reminds me how jimmy said that i have no faith in people. i tend to not trust them.
god is this my punishment as well?

last friday was the Orientation Party for new students.
oh gawd. who was the one that convinced me to go!?
me.

Vinnie.

the one i sat with in class everyday.. but i shifted place :D hehehe

chop chop chemical on our skinnnn

Byron and Q Ho.

Vinnie and Azzie

the theme was 70's and it's quite obvious that my friends and i did not exactly follow the theme.
the party was pretty sick. its like a clubbing scene in a small college. no joke.

crowd is sick. food is sick. everything is basically sick. which made me sick.

we ended up playing pool and foosball in hartamas shopping centre. which was so much better.
note to self : do not attend orientation party.

oh btw, i passed my undang test! no biggie but.. whatever. victoryyyyyyy!



finally talked to yuan ting online :')
now i felt like i received 30% faith.

"damn 7 kit sim wan after u lost your phone.. the person confirm dying"
- yuan ting on her experience of losing her new handphone.


love,
calleighmesser.

just like another stranger

hello buffalosssssssss.

i survived! i am over everything that happened previously. ahhh.. my friends are my cure. <3 i love you all. so effy much.

i am in bad luck seriously. tyre punctured on the way to college this morning.
oh well.
learn from your mistakes. at least i get to look at how to change a tyre.

gonna watch paranormal activity tomorrow. holy crappppp, so nervoussss. everyone's tellin me how scary it is. no sleep tomorrow D:

btw. i was assumed by more than 5 person in college that i'm a korean or japanese.
WHATTTTT? WHYY HOW WHEN WHO??

orientation party on this coming friday! stoked. not really.
70's theme. eek. what to wear what to wear.

i have no pictures in my blog. sorry, no camera. i mean i do, but... sigh. from a 12MP camera phone to a 2MP camera phone, i'd rather not take any pictures. and i hate samsung, why is samsung so stupid?

ok bye. got notes to do.

don't ask/remind me about it ):

today was actually gonna be a best day of college. we had games during psychology, and extra legal class. i get to mix with the other classmates as well. food was nice and cheap. everyone was so nice today.

until my phone is lost within less than 5 minutes.
went to washroom with anette, washed my hands, placed my phone on the sink, forgotten about it. realised that i lost my phone after 2 minutes(yeah, i'm that quick)
ran back to the washroom, gone.

reported in lost and found. i even printed 20+ copies of notice and stapled it on the notice board.
):

there's so many nice people in college that's willing to help me.
the lecturers, my psyc teacher, students from other class, some strangers that helped me stick more notice on the toilet. even toilet cleaners. eventhough i suspected them.

but it must be a girl who has stolen my phone. cos its in a girls toilet.
i didn't know girls are so.... pathetic.
i would return an iPhone if i see it in a toilet.

i took this matter so fucking calmly. right now i don't even know how i did it so well. no crying no running like a mad dog. wow.

sigh. broken heart. i loved my phone so much ):


but overall, i'm really touched that everyone actually cares or worry about me. like the lady in ECA office, she told me to tell her if i found my found my phone because she's concern about it. );
the staff in my high school office was never nice ):

my classmates are extremely nice. anette, azi, ryan, chris, su yi, sk,.. they are more kan cheong than me. they helped me circulate the notice around each floors. ):

SIGHH. why do i deserve this!!

yup. so i just feel like pouring my thoughts about today's incident here.
i don't feel like talking about it at all.
so if you thought of asking me in msn or something, please.. don't.

jess and hooi nee was comforting me about it in college earlier. i was calm before they comfort me. but when they're comforting me, i felt like crying because they reminded how miserable i am.

don't ask me about it please ):
pretend you don't know anything even when i'm giving you another number to call me in the future.

thanks. ):

maybe one day you gonna wanna..

make out make out make out with me?

i love katy perry.

oh gosh i'm sick and i suck. if i suck, you better swallow.

college is fine. friends are increasing. well, i don't know if i should even categorised them as friends since,.. we hardly do what friends do? except for me and anette. and maybe azi. she smokes. i should smoke too. so they'll like me even more. i'm gonna try one puff tomorrow. if i like it, i'll do it. if i don't, i'll try it till i like it.

i am tiny winy bit afraid when i'm in college. sigh.
because i don't feel protective ):
yuan ting used to take care of me. ): now i'm on my ownnnn

oh myyyyyyy.






i'm totally jokin about the cigg. me?cigg? kid you.
but who knows. :P
NO I WON'T.


ok bye. someone finally added me. bye.

PROWL!

college life is gettin' more and more interesting and fun. it's only like, my 2nd day in college..? excluding orientation day. eventhough i got a little lost in college sometimes. now i won't, its a pretty small college after all. :D

made a few friends; hooi nee, byron, jerome - from jy & jess's class.

and SK, zachary, wen ee, annette, azi, adam, vivian, and others i don't quite remember which are from my very own class. ahh, happy. no, it's almost like a huge relieved. that i'm finally able to chat with my classmates. i think my class have the largest group. changin' to a bigger class next week. NOOOOO, i love my class, its so near to the shoppin' mall ! D:

lunch was what we're lookin' forward to the most. we're all starving our ass out every morning. sigh, should get some instant milo soon. ):

legal studies is fucking confusing. thank god joanne can help me with that, which will probably reduce the stress level. psyc class seems pretty fun, eventhough the lecturer said it's not. hahahah

economics and accounting studies. holy fuck. i'm so glad i took arts during high school, at least i won't be suffering as much as science stream students that's takin' econs & accounting in college :P

so its pretty fun in college! finally able to experience it. hehehe

feels abit dewasa.

hahahahaha

..

love the PC room. it's where i have to hang out most of the time, sis had to drop me in college early in the morning. so, if any of you are up in the morning, let's ebuddy at 7.40am >:D

theres like one restaurant in HSC(hartamas shopping centre. not hiew sin chuen), is giving special discount for taylors college student O.O wtf

rm8 for nice food & drinks. oh yesss

had mamak food today, nasi kandar something. yummit.

need more books and files! and new college outfits. gettin sian, everyday wearin' black skirt tshirt black jacket. sian. need new pairs of shoes. gettin' really broke soon. ):

miss my friends. ):
i miss canteen wtf. cheap and boleh tahan's food and limited choices. best for the indecisive me.

DID NOT miss school's toilet, class, teachers and uniforms.



long bangga college post. sorry for that :D
btw, here's a picture of me and my friends hanging out!

why am i here again

oh my gosh what am i doing here.
i should be packing my bag for college tomorrow.
just kidding , there's nothing much to pack i know. it's only orientation day.

i was gonna pack my.. pencil case, a notebook, ipod, purse, passport picture & resit, phone... what else. that's all.

i also should be cutting my own fringe. hhahahaaha
lazy. it's covering my eyes. can be ju-on anytime.

ah. okay. i'll go now. bye everyone.



is there any anger management class that i can take? or true blood rehab? that drama is seriously giving me so much bad influence. lots of fuck!
yes as in fuckin and the word fuck. super 18+ drama and i'm not even 18. my sis is the best for downloading it for me :D

ok srsly bye.